| | Time: | 09:36 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/okay.gif) realizing reality... |
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| | i'm sooo not motivated anymore. I'm done w/ everything, I'm depressed once again..yup. My room is a mess and my hmwk is not done, i need to do both as well as find time to just sit and watch a dvd and do nothing, but I can't. I'm about to say screw school and take the week off...yup yup....but I can't cuz this is like the worst week since midterms..yup..i'm gonna fail this semsester :( | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Your Personality Profile | 
You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.
For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong. |
| Your Five Factor Personality Profile | 
Extroversion:
You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"
Conscientiousness:
You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.
Agreeableness:
You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.
Neuroticism:
You have high neuroticism.
It's easy for you to feel shaken, worried, or depressed.
You often worry, and your worries prevent you from living life fully.
You tend to be emotionally reactive and moody. Your either flying very high or feeling very low.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything. |
| Your Eyes Should Be Brown | 
Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom
What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart |
| What Your Soul Really Looks Like | 
You are a warm hearted and open minded person. It's easy for you to forgive and forget.
You are not a very grounded person. You prefer dreams to reality. For you, it's all about possibilities.
You believe that people see you as a bit small and insignificant. People pay more attention to you than you think.
Your near future is all about change, but in very small steps. The end of the journey looks far, but it's much closer than you realize.
For you, falling in love is all about the adventure and uncertainty. You can only fall in love with someone who keeps you guessing. |
| You Communicate With Your Ears | 
You love conversations, both as a listener and a talker.
What people say is important to you, and you're often most affected by words, not actions.
You love to hear complements from others. And when you're upset, you often talk to yourself.
Music is very important to you. It's difficult to find you without your iPod. |
| What Your Sleeping Position Says |
You have a passion for everything - including sleeping.
Outgoing and brash, you tend to still shock those who know you well.
You tend to be selfish. You are the most likely type to hog the covers.
You gravitate toward comfort and don't like extreme situations.
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| maybe i don't realize how lucky i am... I've got the best boyfriend in the world and yet i still have a hard time feeling nething. I know how i feel, but i can't feel it..if that makes ne sence. Everything about him is amazing and i don't know what i did to deserve somone like him. No matter what time of day I need someone he is there or if i just wanna talk just to hear his voice he doesn't care. When i'm sick he takes care of me and even if i made just one sale for the cheapest thing he still says congrats.. He does the same things I do when he needs me or when he does the littlest things. We compliment each other and we compromise which is something i'm not used to (especially w/ my rule with food!!!!!) Joce has been trying to get me to say please for years and within 3 months he already has me saying it. He trusts me with his deepest thoughts and respects my wishes. If i wish something he tries to make it happen, even when i tell him not to. I love everything about him even the face he makes when i accidently wake him up at 8am on a saturday, but still comes and cuddles with me afterwards. Flowers would be nice once and awhile for suprises or for something special, but i don't need them or care if he busy them all i want his him. Granted we both have our own lives, but being away just sux. i guess it doesn't faze me b/c of everything i went through w/ ben and i'm used to being away from someone. He is my motivation for getting me through the weeks i can't see him and he is helping me open up more. Yes i know what dont i share..right? But there are some things that i don't share about how i really feel with basically anyone... Working with kids would be awesome. The last time i was at his camp, i helped him with boating and i enjoyed it. Watching their faces and the joy that they had when they finished and the fun they had was amazing..i could do that everyweekend if I had to. Just thinking of him makes me buy and do very spontaneous things, little embarrasing, but i love it..and i love him.. Just thinking of him makes me smile, i just wish i could fully feel how i feel...
**24 hours to go...so can't wait...*** | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | 3 more daysssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss wohooooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I can't wait till saturday gets here, but that monday wouldn't come for a week. After this w/e its 5 days over jays'!!!!!!!!!!!!! so excited..i absolutly love his family and his home. His camp is amazing and eventually i'm going to have to remember that its his parents house and not ours and that trying to kiss him and try to distract him while he is already distracted by the tv in the livingroom isn't a good thing. lol. We'll have to change that distraction ;) I still don't know fully how i feel about him, but all i know is that i'm soo attracted to him and that being without him makes me miserable, he is helping me out just like i'm helping him. i love that....and i love him, but i wish i could feel it and my guard would be let down...... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Subject: | hahah | | Time: | 08:17 am |
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| Your results:
You are Luke Skywalker
| Luke Skywalker |
| 78% |
| Han Solo |
| 72% |
| C-3PO |
| 68% |
| Jar Jar Binks |
| 68% |
| R2-D2 |
| 67% |
| Lando Calrissian |
| 62% |
| Princess Leia |
| 61% |
| Mace Windu |
| 61% |
| Obi-Wan Kenobi |
| 60% |
| Chewbacca |
| 60% |
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You value your friends and loved ones,
but can sometimes act recklessly
because of your emotions.
Occasionally you resort to whining.
You look ahead to great things for yourself.
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(This list displays the top 10 results out of a possible 21 characters)
Click here to take the Star Wars Personality Test
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| | Subject: | bored | | Time: | 10:48 pm |
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| [[Since The Beginning of This Year]]
1. Have you had a gf/bf? yup =)
2. Have you had your birthday? nope
3. Gotten drunk? sort of.
4. Gotten high? hell no
5. Smoked a cig? nope
6. Cried? Um....a number of times..
7. Had someone close to you pass away? no
8. Pulled an all nighter? almost
9. Drank starbucks? yes
10. Went shopping? of course
11. Been camping? sort of
12. Been to the beach? sort of
13. Bought something for over $100? yup
14. Met someone new? yep
15. Been out of state? nope =P
16. Visited a family member? yup
17. Gone snowboarding? nope
[[In The past month]]
1. Have you had sex? no.
2. Kissed someone? Yes.
3. Slept in a friends bed? yup
4. Snuck someone over? no
5. Snuck out of your own house? nope
6. Been drunk? sort of
7. Lied? no
8. Gotten a car? nope, using my dad's car
9. Went over your cell phone bill? minutes? yup
10. Been called a whore? no
11. Drove somewhere? yes
12. Been away from home for over 2 nights? yes...hello =P
13. Seen an old friend? yep
[In The Past Week]]
1. Bought something? yea
2. Choked? no...
3. Watched t.v for over 3 hours straight? no...
4. Been to the movie theatre? no
5. Been to a party? no.
6. Gone skydiving? no?!
7. Been to the beach? nope
8. Smoked? no
9. Done drugs? nope
10. Gotten a gift from someone? no
11. Been out of control? no
13. Made a cd? no
14. Called someone? come on im the phone queen
15. Got sick? no
16. Felt guilty? yea... =(
17. Wished you were someone else? yea
18. Been jealous of someone else? yea
19. Done something you know you shouldn't have?
20. Had to make a big decision? yup.
[[Lasts]]
1. Thing you bought? dinner.
2. Person you hugged? jay
3. Person you kissed? jay
4. Person you talked to? jay.
5 Person to call you? jay
6. what does the last text message on your phone say? yeah better 2 drive
7. Last time you brushed your teeth? hour ago
8. Last time you took a shower? this morning
9. When was the last time you cried? almost a couple of min ago.
10. Last time you felt stupid? everyday
11. When was the last time you walked/ran over a mile? everyday... its my job | | comments: Leave a comment |
| i'm so in love with him its not funny. just being with him anywhere feels like home. I love his home I could live there with him forever. Its his parents place, but sometimes i forget b/c it feels like our place. I don't know what i would do without him. I love him soo much. if anyone tries to fuck this up its not gonna work.
*missing you soo much 2 weeks. Everytime i'm with you it feels like just us in a room. I love you soo much* | | comments: Leave a comment |
| TMI (Too Much Info!)
Two rules... and you MUST follow them!!!
--1. You can only say YES, NO or KINDA!
--2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks!
Taken a picture naked?
no
Made out with a member of the same sex?
no
Told a lie?
Yes
Had a one night stand?
no
Been in a fist fight?
no
Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?
Yes
Been arrested?
No
Fooled around in your parents house?
yes
Ditched school to have sex?
no
Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?
yes
Seen someone die
No
Kissed a picture?
Yes
Slept in until 3?
yes
Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?
Yes
Played dress up?
yes
Fallen asleep at work/school?
Yes
Touched a snake?
Yes
Ran a red light?
Yes
Had detention?
no
Been in a car accident?
no
Pole danced?
kinda?
Been lost?
Yes
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?
Yes
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
yes
Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
Yes
Sang in the shower?
Yes
Gave your private parts a nickname?
no
Sat on a roof top?
yes
Played chicken?
kinda
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
yes
Broken a bone?
no
Mooned/flashed someone?
yes
Had sex with your socks on?
yes
Slept naked?
Yes
Blacked out from drinking?
no
Played a prank on someone?
Yes
Felt like killing someone?
Yes
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry?
Yes
Cried over someone?
Yes
Had sex more than 10 times in one day
No
Had a dog?
No
Been in a band or played an instrument?
Yes
Taken more than 10 shots of alcohol in one night?
no
Shot a gun?
no
idk how this was a TMI quiz..it was stupid. yupper... hmm. oh welz.
in other news..my day has been shitty, 3 days till i leave for north carolina then seeing my man when i get back =) soooooooo can't wait. I miss him tons.. then its binghamton time..man i'm soo nervous..oh welz. closer to my man =). later | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 11:03 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/sad.gif) sad |
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| soo my time w/ jay comes to an end. He left about 20 min ago for home. Now i wont see him for about 2 weeks. That's the longest we will ever be apart thus far. Its wierd not seeing him everyday. I miss him taking care of me and holding me and being there for me. The semester is over and the summer begins. this is gonna be a rough summer.
I miss him already =( | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 03:04 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/loved.gif) loved |
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| even though i fully don't know how i feel, I do know i love him. I can't picture myself without him. He makes me feel like I've never felt before with every touch, kiss, holding, and chillin. He is mine and i can tell he loves me just by looking in his eyes. he even told me last nite he did. He's perfect, no matter what he thinks. Sure i would love some flowers or suprises here and there, but just being next to him is all I need. I can't wait for next semester when i hopefully get to see him all the time. I can't believe he leaves tomorrow for the summer. IDK what i'm gonna do without him even at nite.
Sometimes i think how much do I love him. All i know is that when he isn't here i'm lost... | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Your Deadly Sins | | Gluttony: 100% | | Lust: 60% | | Sloth: 60% | | Wrath: 60% | | Envy: 40% | | Greed: 20% | | Pride: 0% | | Chance You'll Go to Hell: 49% | | You'll die from food poisoning - and then the natives will feast on your fatty limbs. |
haha its funny that he has as much lust as he does..lol. i'm glad i know he loves me =)
1 day left at this apt :( its soo sad. moving the rest out today and praying my mom changes her mind on me going home w/ jay ;).
Ok now that i had my fun this, i'm gonna go back to entertaining jay..byes! | | comments: Leave a comment |
| | Your Deadly Sins | | Envy: 80% | | Greed: 60% | | Sloth: 60% | | Wrath: 60% | | Gluttony: 40% | | Pride: 20% | | Lust: 0% | | Chance You'll Go to Hell: 46% | | You will die at the hands of a jealous lover. How ironic. |
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| ok..here is my last list of things to do
Capstone paper(which my group is doing b/c i have no idea what we did, etc)
samaritan Center(prolly won't be done till the end of next week, thank god teacher understands and that i live here)
Packing..
Packing...that's scary. I think i'm almost done, i just need to move out the big things, pack up my clothes and i'm done. Done...with my first entire year of SU. I'm gonan miss this palce like crazy. Even though this year started out crazy and with nothin to do, it also ended in the best way possible and i sort of had fun doing it. 3 more days and i move on for the summer. 1 week to live home 1 week in north carolina 3 days of living home, then on june 1st by Syracuse b/c i'm in binghamton all summer, the hopefully moving out at the exact time I can move back into campus.
This summer = no jay, and not seeing many people, and working ass off for not even minimum wage.
teachers always told us that living in the real world would change the way you are and who you will become, i hope this summer makes me figure out what i want to do with the rest of my life and become a better person with lots of motivation and enthusiasm.
This year has been strange in more ways then one, but the best thing came out of it, Jay. Never in my wildest dreams did I ever expect to find someone that cares about me as much as I care about them. He rather wake up with me, even if its at 7 in the morning, then sleep at home for a nite. I kept telling him to go sleep at home and all he said was no, I only have a month left to spend with you and if that means waking up early and being next to you all nite, then its worth it. I'm gonna miss him like crazy this summer and its gonna be the wierdest feeling in the world not having him next to me every nite or being able to see him everyday. I'm going to go insane. I don't know fully how I feel about him, but all I know is not having him in my life would be the worst feeling in the world. I could wake up in his arms everynite for a long time and still feel the same(at least I hope). I'm so attached...and i'm gonna miss him.
Besides him i'm gonna miss everyone this summer and Josie is leaving for italy for a year :(. So can't wait till I see here there at the end of December. Like i said this is gonna be a crazy summer..
You all better visit this summer!!!!!!!!!!! ya hear! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 01:18 am | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/pessimistic.gif) pessimistic |
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| my last final is in 5 hours. i have 1 more paper to do and 1 more project. my group is irritated cuz i have no idea what i'm doing, which isn't my fault my teacher is an ass. I don't care anymore and all i want to do is sleep.
So can't wait for Jay to get home. HOpefully he'll be home in the next hour or so. yup i know its almost 1:30am, but he is doing hmwk himself.
I'm gonna faillllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll in the morning. tomorrow is busy busy..i hope i get my letters..
nite
| You Are a Fortune Cookie | 
You're a rather normal person, except that you have extraordinary luck in life.
People want to be around you (even when they're a little sick of you), in hopes of being lucky too! |
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| | Subject: | lol | | Time: | 02:34 am | | Current Mood: | waiting for jay to get home |
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| | Your Extroversion Profile: | | Assertiveness: Very High | | Activity Level: High | | Excitement Seeking: High | | Friendliness: High | | Sociability: High | | Cheerfulness: Medium |
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| | Time: | 06:23 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/horny.gif) a little horny |
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| marketing plan = almost done
samaritan center stuff
mail out lease
capstone paper
mktg final
that's all i have left. i want to be done fri at 5pm. that's it, but idk if that's gonna happen.
oh and my mind is really thinking dirty thoughts. this morning i thought of me and jay in the shower, and i've never thought that. im a wacko!! | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| | Time: | 10:51 pm | | Current Mood: | ![[mood icon]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/mood/neko/kaokitty/worried.gif) worried |
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| ok. so here is the rest of my semester
wrt-samaritan center stuff and write ups
crs-DONE
fin-DONE
Scm-DONE
mkt-marketing plan, and final
capstone-paper and presentation and the rest of the game
due date to be done w/ everything friday 10am!
then its pack up and elave the apt, and so much jay and me time. We might actually be able to visit my cousin on the 9th!!!!!!! woohoo!!!!!!!!!!! so stocked. Then maybe i'll be down at his house for a few days, then work, then back here for another week, north carolina, and then binghamton. OMG everything is flying by soo fast
Oh and my crazy nite ends w/ no jay. I saw him last nite, but he wasn't feeling well. Now i def wont see him till thurs, maybe its a good thing, so i can get all my work done. hmm. I miss his arms, and him. and my head keps hurting me!!!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh. i wish it would go away.
aiight time for bed and maybe some studying.
last day of classes tomorrow!!!!!!! last final (which should ahve been 2 weeks ago) friday 8am, i'm fucked. nite all
p.s. idk when i should officially move out of the apt :( | | comments: Leave a comment |
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